9.00 p.m.

Grissom's house

Gil was looking out of the window, looking back on Cath's words.

She told him, he was insensitive, without personal stuff..... so this is what she thinks?

He has no feelings? An iceman?

So he's like a robot that can only work, spends his free time alone in his hermetically sealed condo, watching discovery on the big screen, working genius"level crossword puzzles, but no relationships?

Is she right? Is he an automata, an iceman without personal stuff?

No. He can feel and he can love.

He loves her.... Yes he loves her since they met back that day, but they became friends and he was afraid to ruin their friendship.

She said they bring themselves to their cases but he can't because everybody could understand his feelings and his fears, he doesn't want it.

But this situation is a torture!

Can she imagine how difficult it is to be so close to her and can't do anything? They work together all the day but he can't watch her, touch her... it will be a mistake.

He can't tell her what he feels but he isn't an iceman for this, no he isn't!

This troubles were torturing him, he needed to see her, to talk to her, to show her the truth.

He wanted to tell her everything and he went to her.

He arrived in few minutes and rang the doorbell.

Catherine opened the door and asked him " You? What are you doing here? It's very late"

"I need to talk to you."

"About what?"

"Us!" he answered and came in.

Catherine closed the door after him and followed him in the living room.

"Us? Sorry Gil, I can't understand you!"

"Do you remember the speech of two hours ago?" he asked her while he was sitting on the sofa.

"Sure...so?" She sat too in front of him.

"You've told me I don't have personal stuff and relationships"

"This is what I think!" she said without delay.

"You're wrong! I'm not a robot that can't feel! I have personal stuff, I can suffer and love like humans!"

"It doesn't seem so."

"How can you say this?"

"Stop! I have had enough of this conversation! I don't want to go on!"

Catherine tried to walk away when Gil's hand took her arm.

"No, you've got to answer! HOW CAN YOU SAY THIS?"

" Gil...I can't "

"No Cath! You really don't know anything. You can't understand!"

"What? What I can't understand? YOU CAN'T FEEL ANYTHING AND I HATE YOU FOR THIS!"

"Do you hate me? Really? Do you want to know something Cath?"

They stood up together suddenly. He was angry, his eyes became inflamed.... their faces were very close.

"What?"She was fighting him, she was very angry.

"I HATE YOU TOO!!!" He screamed.

Her heart froze in few seconds, she couldn't believe in what she heard, Gil hated her and she said it too.... She tried to speak and said "Well, why don't you go away now? You've told me everything so you are free to go."

When their eyes met, their hearts started to beat quickly all their feelings anger, hate, love, desire, lust were fighting with the reason....and they were going to win!

They were so close..... suddenly he answered "No!"

"No?" she asked amazed.

"No, I won't go away, you have to hear me and then I'll go away if you want."

They sat together. Catherine's anger was almost vanished but at the same time she was shocked: he rang at her door in the middle of the night, wanting to talk about them, they discussed violently, they screamed and at the end he still had something to say? What was he going to do?

She tried to calm down herself and then let Gil speak "You've told lots of things tonight ..... things that you thinks and I've answered you're right. I'm deficient in a lot of ways, I'm human Cath, only human! I can make mistakes, I can suffer and get hurt.... But I didn't want to hurt you. Really! Please trust me! I can feel, I know it doesn't seem but I have personal stuff that people mustn't know. This is the truth!

I can't show that I love you Cath! It's very difficult for me, stay alone with you.... I can't do anything! You don't know how badly I want to kiss your lips, touch your body, but I'm afraid of it, it could be a mistake and I don't want to lose you! I love you Cath, you can't imagine how much I love you!"

Catherine was looking at him, she couldn't speak, Gil's confession had threw her into confusion.

After a while, Gil said " I think I have to go." He stood up and went to the door when she said

"Coward!" her voice trembled and she started to cry and she repeated " GIL GRISSOM YOU'RE A COWARD! WHEN WERE YOU GOING TO TELL ME THIS? WHY DO YOU TELL ME IT NOW? You're afraid.... ME TOO! I HAVE BEEN MARRIED WITH A MAN THAT HIT ME WHEN HE WAS DRUNK OR JEALOUS! LOT OF BAD STORIES AND YOU TELL ME THAT YOU'RE AFRAID?....I'M AFRAID OF LOTS OF THINGS!!!"

And she cried.

"What do you want from me? I'm not a perfect man Catherine! I'll never be a prince that saves you from troubles....I'm a man and I LOVE YOU!" he stopped for a while and then started again " I hate all the men around you because I can't stand they watch you or desire you... You're mine Cath!"

" I love you Gil Grissom. I'm mad about you, I can't stand when you talk to Sara, I hate the way she looks at you, the way she feels when you're together.... I hate all your women, Teri Miller, Lady Heather.... You've loved them and I hate them with all of my heart... and I love you with all of my heart!"

She cried hitting Gil's chest. He held her softly in his arms " I love you Cath, you're the only woman in my life in my mind. I desire you and want to make love with you."

Their gazes met, he smiled at her and finally their lips started a deep kiss.

Their tongues started to dance in their mouths, she could feel the heat that coursed through her veins when her skin briefly latched onto his.

They stopped and she looked at him, she could see the lust and passion in his eyes and smiled softly.

"I've waited for this moment for a long time but I didn't think it could be so beautiful. " he said.

"Really?" she whispered in his ear" Is it so beautiful?"

"Don't you think?"

Yes.... but we can make it "more" beautiful!Do you want to see?" she said malicious.

He smirked; He really wanted to see and he was satisfied.

Catherine reached over, running her hand through his salt and peppered hair; she kissed him, licking his lips and taking his breath away.

His hands started to move over her body, exploring her back; she sat on him with his legs between hers and laid against him.

She could feel his strong erection against her core and she started to rub against him.

He moaned in her mouth for the contact; her hand slipped between them and took it, he moaned again feeling the blood pressure increased in his veins.

He cupped her breasts with both of hands, massaging them softly. She laid down under his touch, arching her back and moaning his name.

They undressed each other without breaking the contact.

They went to her bedroom and Gil lied Catherine on the bed.

He kissed her breast and started to suck her nipples, her body was pervaded by lust and excitement.

He slipped one finger inside her, stroking her clit and guiding her to the edge.

She moaned "God.....Gil"

She tried to resist but at the end she came while he was watching the anxiety on her face.

Then she kissed him and went on the top of him. Catherine started to kiss his ears, his neck and his chest, going down.

She took his erection in her mouth, starting to move up and down.

"Cath..... please stop." he moaned.

She came back to his lips, kissed him and said " I want you, inside of me."

He was on the top now and penetrated her finding her approval in her eyes.

She gasped at the contact and moaned his name in her mouth and said "Gil, I love you."

"I love you too." and finally they collapsed together.

He kissed her lips softly and held her in his arms.

Now, he could show his feelings without fear and he could love his woman quietly.

He kissed her forehead softly and told her " I want to thank you."

"Why?" she asked looking curious at him.

"Because I can feel now!"

She smiled at him and kissed him then they fell asleep embraced.

***Finis***