Catherine walks into Gils office intent on telling him some good news for once in the past few days. She walks in and Sara has her hands planted on the desk," Why won't you"

"Because," he notices Catherine," Sara could I talk to Gil for a minute"

"No not until he gives me a reason"

"Sara please I'm begging you"

"No," Catherine slowly surrenders and reaches into her pocket and text messages Gil. His cell phone rings and he opens it and looks at her after reading it. She nods. Sara looks back at her," Get out"

"No I really need to talk to Gil"

"Get the fuck out"

"No," she pushes her way past Sara and whispers in Gils ear. He lets out a light laugh and Catherine smiles. Sara's frustration boils over and she spins Catherine away from him so she goes chest first into a filing cabnet, hard. Catherine cries out as she hears and feels a couple of ribs crack. Sara stops yelling at Gil and looks at Catherine. She slides to the ground holding her chest," You bitch"

"Cath honey"

"Cath honey what the hell....."

"This is the reason I can't go out with you," he kneels down by her side," You gotta get me to the hospital Gil. I know at least...........one rib is...........broken"

"Come on," he helps her up and out to the truck. Sara is behind them the whole way. When he goes to open the driver side door he looks at her," You and I will deal with this later at the moment you are on leave go home," he gets in and drives Catherine to the hospital.

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Catherines doctor comes out and Gil walks over to her," How's Cath"

"She's okay at the moment. 2 cracked ribs should be fine in a month. She wants to tell you the rest"

"Okay," he follows the doctor to Catherines room. When he walks in he can see the bump under her blanket," How you feeling"

"Okay bout ready to kill Sara"

"I handled it okay," he lays down on the bed next to her," No Gil I literally am going to kill her"

"Cath what's wrong"

"The good news is that my chance of concieveing is high the bad news is I don't think I'm going to be out of here long enough to get pregnant"

"Cath I thought......."

"She killed it......she killed him"

"Cath," she cries into his chest uncontrolably," It'll be okay honey"

"No it won't"

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Gil walks into the lab Catherine behind him. Nobody had been updated on her condition as far as they knew Catherine was in the hospital because of Sara. She pulls her coat tighter, the AC in the lab getting to her," I'm gonna go to the locker room okay I have a sweater in my locker"

"Okay," he kisses her forehead and goes into his office as she walks off. He shuts the door behind him and drops his briefcase on the desk.

Catherine opens her locker and pulls out her gun and walkie talkie. She clips them onto her jeans and grabs her sweater. She pulls off the dark tiedye tshirt and pulls on the dark blue sweater. She pulls her hair back into a ponytail and takes 2 more of her pain killers. Catherine hears Sara, Nick, and Warricks voices. She slams her locker shut as they walk in laughing,"

Hey Cath we didn't know.......," she pushes her way out of the room. The three of them all look at eachother and then at the door. Catherine walks into the break room and grabs a bag out of the freezer. Out of the bag she pulls a sucker out and shoves it into her mouth. She puts the bag back and sits on the couch flipping through an old issue of Cosmo. As the rest of the team files in no one says anything to Catherine exept Greg," Hey Cath how you feeling"

"Better my ribs still hurt"

"You still taking the pain killers"

"4 a day then I can do anything"

"What about med bills"

"City's covering them"

"How are you dealing with it"

"Better definately better. It still hurts though"

"You'll be fine in no time," he kisses her cheek and she smiles at him," Thanks for listening Greg"

"Any time," he walks out of the breakroom and Gil walks in. Catherine looks up at him," Hey what do we have for tonight"

"We're gonna be short so Greg's going out"

"Gris there's four of us here without Catherine"

"Sara at the moment you are on a year long leave pending completion of anger management classes. "This leave has been approved by the sherrif so don't think you can go over my head on this"

"What the hell," she takes the sheet of paper from him," Go home you'll be contacted in the next couple days on when your classes are"

"You can't do this"

"I have and you can't undo it," she reads it over," Damage to Catherine Willows. What fucking damage"

"You broke 2 of her ribs. She had to have screws put in because they wouldn't heal right. She's had to start taking minimal dosage anti depressants, because of all of the damage"

"Just because of 2 broken ribs she has to take anti depressants"

"No, because............"

"You killed my child, our child. He's dead because of you, if you would have just left lke I was begging you too I would still have him. You can never know what I went through before I even found out I was pregnant. I've been in remission for 9 years from breast cancer and I thought it all had ended when I started getting sick again and finding out I was pregnant was a dream, it was a short lived one though. I want my goddamn baby back and I can't have that," she gets up crying and runs out of the room. Greg sees her and runs after her. Gil turns back to Sara," Leave now. Put your gun and badge on my desk and empty out your locker. You are not aloud back at CSI until you complete the classes," she pushes her chair back as she stands and goes into the locker room where Catherine is slouched against her locker and Greg is holding her as she cries. She opens her locker and puts all the contents into a duffel. She lays a wrapped box onto the bench and leaves. After a few more minutes Gil walks in and Greg looks up at him," You're on a DB out in Henderson"

"Gris......."

"I'll stay with her, go"

"Okay," he kisses Catherine's forehead and looks into her eyes," I'll be back after a while okay," she nods and Greg kisses her forehead again," Thanks Greg," he leaves and Gil sits down next to her," You wanna tell me what's wrong"

"No"

"Cath"

"I don't wanna tell you now okay"

"You know what the doctor said you need to take it easy"

"I know and I will," she looks up at him," Gil it's been 8 weeks and I haven't gotten any justice"

"Cath Sara just left"

"So sending her to anger management classes, keeping her away so she can formulate a plan against me, is justice. I want her to know what it feels like"

"Cath we can't do anything"

"I want her to know what it feels like," she breaks down in his arms again and he presses a kiss to her forehead as he cries himself," I don't know what to do this time. I'm sorry"

"Bring him back"

"I wish I could sweetheart. I wish I could," she cries harder into his chest and he pulls her closer his grip tightening never wanting to let go.

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1 year later

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A 14 year old Lindsey Grissom was running around the house getting her stuff for the last day of school ready," Lindsey would you sit down and eat or you aren't going to school," her mother yells to her from the kitchen," Fine," she walks into the kitchen and Catherine puts a few pancakes on her plate already with eggs and bacon on it. Baby cries ring through the monitor on Catherines hip," Goddamn it," she pads up the stairs and into the nursery by her and Gils bedroom. She looks down at their 2 day old baby boy, Ryan Nicholas, with dark brown curls and Gils bright blue eyes, she picks him up and cradels him close to her," Hey Ryan what's wrong honey," he cries harder and Catherine quickly gives him her breast. He rests a fist against it and he sucks hungrily. She smiles as the door shuts downstairs. She walks downstairs and smiles at Gil," Hey how was work"

"Okay slow night until the end," she kisses him," Well there's food in the kitchen. Coffee's in the pot and you're daughter is going crazy"

"Sounds like a normal morning to me"

"Okay I'm done now can I leave," Lindsey comes out of the kitchen wiping her hands," Yes.

Melissa coming over tonight"

"Yeah"

"Okay I will see you around 12 okay"

"Okay," she kisses her brothers forehead and hugs her mom and dad," Love you guys bye," she grabs a duffel bag and slams the door behind her," Go eat okay we can leave in a few minutes"

"Why did we let the guys talk us into this"

"Because, now eat something not alot though," he walks into the kichen and Catherine smiles down at their son. After a few minutes there's a knock on the door. Catherine gets out of the Lazyboy and opens the door. Her eyes go wide," Sara what are you doing here"

"I was wondering if I could talk to Grissom"

"He's in the kitchen 1st door on your right"

"Thanks," she walks in and goes into the kitchen. Catherine stands in the doorway," Um.....Gris," Gil looks up," Sara what are you doing here"

"Well I came by to hand in my resignation"

"Resignation," he takes the paper from her," I've gotten an offer from Sisco. Day shift supervisor. And the University has been willing to cut tuition for a doctorate in half if I teach some classes"

"Do the guys know"

"Yeah I told them last night"

"Even Nicky"

"I plan on telling him tonight. It's going to be hard, but I need to do it"

"Sara you can quit, but you could teach at UNLV"

"I need a home and Vegas isn't a home"

"When are you leaving"

"In 2 weeks. Vegas can be a home to you and the guys, but it can't be one to me and I can't find the person I need to make my life complete in a place that I can't call home"

"I thought we made eachother feel that way Sar," she turns around and Nick is standing in the doorway," I can't raise a family here Nick you know that"

"How can you just pack up and leave.......after a year together how can you just pack up and leave"

"Because unless you love me enough to move back to Sisco with me there's no reason to stay"

"You could have just asked me Sara"

"But you don't deserve to be uprooted because of me"

"Why can't you understand that I love you. I would do anything for you"

"Make me believe Vegas can be a home to me and our kids when they get older. I don't wanna leave but unless I'm sure my babies are gonna be safe I have to"

"They will be safe. We. Will be safe," he wraps his arms around her waist and holds her close their foreheads leant together. Catherine sits on Gils lap and he slides his arms around her waist," Well I think we need to start planning the wedding and the baby shower," Nick laughs and Sara smiles," You're staying"

"I'm staying"

"Okay," Gil tears the resignation up and throws it in the trash," Let's go I'm starving"

"You just ate"

"So...."

"Let's go guys," they all walk out to the Denalis and life goes on.

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