Fun and Games: Drabbles

Home by Basilea
Author's Note: This is a series of four drabbles that build a little story... Disclaimers: I don't own CSI Spoilers: None... some AU little thing. Rating: Hum... I'd say PG to NC17 A/N: Jac betaed this for me... Thank you, thank you, THANK YOU!
Chapter 1: I'M LOST I'm lost. I feel so alone I truly believe the whole world has forgotten about me. Everyone but Lindsay. She doesn't trust me anymore. I've told her a thousand times that pain would go away, but it never does. I've turned into a liar. I can't comfort my daughter because I miss him as much as she does. Everything that made me hate him vanished, and all that's left is loving Ed. Caring Ed. The one that showed me coke wasn't necessary and how love really felt like. I want him back and I can't have him. I miss home. Chapter 2: I FELL I run for Grissom for comfort and he is there. He's always there. His arms around me feel so good I believe I'm finally coming home, where I can be safe. His lips on mine make me hungry for his touch, and I fall. As he uses my body to bring me back to life, as he slowly melts pain away, I'm getting home. He makes the universe explode inside me and I know I'm finally there. Safe. Alive. Home. Then I cry. "Oh, god.Ed!" The hurt look in his eyes is painful. I've lost him. And now I'm lost. Chapter 3: MY HEART BREAKS She holds on to me like I'm the only thing that can keep her alive. She looks so fragile she doesn't seem Catherine anymore. I can't help loving her now more than ever. I can't help the urging need to let her know. My body reacts so strongly to her kissing that I'm sure I'll die if I don't have her. I'm glad that she wants me too. I hide inside her in complete bliss, and she cries out in pleasure: "Oh God. Ed!" My heart breaks. She starts crying and four words escape my lips "I love you, Cath" Chapter 4: I LOVE YOU "I love you, Cath" I push him off of me. I feel worse than before and I want run away and hide. He won't let me. He grabbs me and pulls me back into his embrace. I want to die. I love him. I know now that I always have. I know he forgave me and understood. I let him hold me as I cry, not caring anymore about what I said. As soon as we'll try again he'll become the only thought in my mind. I look at him through my tears as I whisper "I love you, Gil" *** --> END <--
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